Sandy S.

Final Post

2007-06-29T17:11:30Z

For personal reasons I'd really rather not go into, this will be my last post on LJ. I just wanted to post this in case anyone cares and wonders why there are no future posts. I just have some issues that I need to work out and accept.

Adios to all who care.

doss @ 2007-06-27T14:18:00

2007-06-27T18:24:06Z

I'm so stoked! July has two new Harry Potter events. July 11th, The Order Of The Phoenix comes out. I won't be able to see it when it first comes out because I'll be out of town. But first chance I get, when I come back, I'll be there!! The Weasley twins are looking kind of cute! ;) (See www.harrypotter.com to know what I'm talking about. From there, you can go to the MySpace link). There are some good pictures. I d/l'ed the wallpaper of Dumbledore's Army.

Then on the 21st, the seventh and final book of the series comes out. I hope it shows that Dumbledore didn't really die. Too many things happened or were said in previous books that make me think he didn't. I guess we'll see!

doss @ 2007-06-22T00:12:00

2007-06-22T04:16:39Z

This week I got to see my absolute favorite author at a book signing. I was really excited! I gotta tell you, my heart goes out to that woman! The signing started at 7pm. My number was 416. I was in line for THREE hours. And when I left, she was only about halfway through the people (Over 700 people showed up!)! She was very polite and posed for a picture with me but I could see she was exhausted. She was gracious the whole time though.

Her daughter, Alex, is a sweetheart. She was going around giving people balloons and stickers and just generally being friendly. I mentioned how disappointed I was that she took the store down from the site (www.evanovich.com). I was hoping to buy a Morelli t-shirt. She apologized and mentioned what all she had going on (Planning a wedding, helping with the tour, plus her own regular job). To make it up to me, she gave me a "Plum Crazy" cap. It has a picture of a woman being dragged along behind a big yellow dog. I LOVE this cap!! I told her she didn't have to do that, but she insisted. Later on, I looked around to see if she was just looking for an excuse to give out these caps and gave one to everyone. Nope. I saw only one other person wearing one. I felt special. :)

It was a long evening, but a nice one. Janet signed her name to my book and I will treasure it always!

doss @ 2007-06-20T10:11:00

2007-06-20T14:18:15Z

Got my haircut this morning. I haven't had it this short in years! It's not super short. It's not cropped close to my head or anything like that. But it's just below my ears which is the shortest I've had it since moving here over 19 years ago.

I am feeling very sexy right now!!

doss @ 2007-06-18T10:16:00

2007-06-18T14:20:23Z

Today I decided I was going to start mall walking. I want to be able to enjoy our trip without getting too winded. So, I got up early, dressed, went to the post office, then went to the mall. The doors I had gone to were locked. I took that as a sign I wasn't meant to walk today and came back home. ;)

I did go to Walmart and walked around there for about an hour, so I don't feel too bad. Even if it wasn't straight walking. I found the most awesome cowboy hat!! I've always wanted a good cowboy hat, but they were always too big for me, or they were those stiff kinds. I wanted one of the straw ones that looked kind of worn and I FINALLY found one that fit! I also found some cute shorts and a tank top. I just hope they fit! Oh well. If they don't, I'll just go back to Walmart and "walk" some more.

Tomorrow I AM going to walk at the mall. I found out which entrance I needed to go in. Then after that I'm going to spend the day visiting my mom and brother.

I'm in a really good mood today!!

doss @ 2007-06-05T12:59:00

2007-06-05T17:03:13Z

Stolen from Malanai

So, doss, your LiveJournal reveals...

You are... 0% unique and 25% herdlike
(partly because you, like everyone else, enjoy reading).
When it comes to friends you are lonely. In terms of the way you relate to people, you believe in give and take.

Your writing style (based on a recent public entry) is conventional.

Your overall weirdness is: 16

(The average level of weirdness is: 27.
You are weirder than 29% of other LJers.)

Find out what your weirdness level is!

doss @ 2007-05-29T10:49:00

2007-05-29T14:57:58Z

My stepmom took a bad spill last night. I don't know all the details because my sister was the one who told me and my dad's cell phone was dying out before she could find out. We do know that she (Stepmom) broke her ankle.

My heart goes out to her. I broke mine about 4 or 5 years ago and it was the worst pain I could ever imagine experiencing. I wouldn't wish that pain on anyone. My dad's going to call back today after they talk to the doctor. Apparently the hospital let her go home with a temporary cast and she's supposed to call the doctor today to find out what gets done now. I had to have surgery and so have others that I know have had the same thing. I hope she doesn't have to go through that.

doss @ 2007-05-16T10:12:00

2007-05-16T14:16:14Z

In a few weeks, my family is going on an incredible vacation. A cruise. I'm excited about it because I've never done anything like that before and probably never will be able to again.

But there's a down side to it. There are so many different tours and activities I'd love to do, but they're so expensive. I'm reminded how tight we are on money. I know I'll enjoy the cruise itself. There are some things that will be fun, that I'm looking forward to, that I think are part of the cruise fare, such as shows and certain lessons. I'll focus on that. If I can get a temporary job before then, you bet your sweet bitty bopka I'm going to enjoy some of those tours with my loved ones! If not, then I'm going to focus on what I can do and just really enjoy the trip!!

Now if I could just lose enough weight to look good in a bikini! Ah well. I'll get a sexy little one piece and a sarong instead.

doss @ 2007-04-28T14:03:00

2007-04-28T18:06:54Z

I had the follow-up from the ultrasound. The doctor said fibroid tumors are showing up but they are perfectly harmless. Kind of like having a freckle or something. They're just there, but don't do anything. She believes the pain was caused by the kidney stones and since the pains are fewer and farther between she believes I'm passing them. So all is well.

doss @ 2007-04-20T12:19:00

2007-04-20T16:22:27Z

I had my follow-up appointment today (4/20) to find out the results of the CT scan. The doctor says there are signs of an infection and there seems to be some micro-somethings (can't remember the word she used) floating around. She suspects it's kidney stones. So I've set up an appointment with a urologist for May 10th.

She also thinks she sees ovarian cysts. So she's scheduled an ultrasound for me for Tuesday, April 24th. My follow-up appointment for the ultra sound is scheduled for Thursday, the 26th.

Keep me in your prayers, please. I've heard that cysts in the ovaries is a common occurrence, especially for women who have never had children, which is my case. I'm still nervous though.

doss @ 2007-04-16T10:33:00

2007-04-16T14:37:32Z

Gonna keep this short and sweet so friends can find out why I haven't been online much.

We got a new car, so I've been able to get to school and finish the classes. Thanks to the program director, I was able to get an internship. It's been keeping me busy along with some health problems. This morning I had to go get a CT scan to find out what has been causing my stomach pains. It's a piercing/burning pain in my belly button. When pressed, the pain spreads downward. Friday is the follow up appointment to find out the test results. Hopefully it's something easy to fix.

That's what's going on with me. I'll finish my internship next week then we'll see what happens from there.

doss @ 2007-03-23T11:38:00

2007-03-23T15:45:12Z

I'm feeling a little better these days. Spring finally seems to be here. A lovely friend of mine sent me something that really brightened my day yesterday when it was so dark and gloomy (Literally stormy weather). I hope that friend knows how much I appreciate it.

Today is okay. Partly sunny but delightfully warm. I've got the windows open so I can feel the breeze. But it seems like anything that could go wrong this morning went wrong. I was listening to one of my audiobooks and one of the cassettes was messed up. So I put a brand new audiobook in and the cassette player ate the tape!! Then I went to fix my lunch and found the bread was moldy. THEN Sammy threw up. Lovely day, huh? But I'm determined it will get better!!

doss @ 2007-03-16T11:01:00

2007-03-16T16:04:49Z

I AM NOT SUICIDAL!!!

Having said that, and hopefully allaying any fears from friends, I'll continue with this entry.

Lately I feel like I'm ready to die. I'm not going to help it, along. Don't get me wrong. But I think about older people who've had long lives. Some have said that they've done everything they were meant to do and were ready to move on.

That's kind of how I've been feeling lately. I don't know what I'm on this earth for. I made the Harvard Medical Books (Long story. Don't ask). I've finished college. I've found the love of my life. I've made wonderful friends. I've travelled (Only to Mexico, but still). I don't really feel like I have a purpose. What am I supposed to do now?

I'm ready to be with my heavenly Father, when He is ready to take me.

doss @ 2007-03-07T14:37:00

2007-03-07T19:41:02Z

I haven't been posting much because I really haven't had much to say. I did finish my classes and am currently looking for an internship/job. Hopefully I'll find something soon so I can pay my student loan. We also need money to make care payments. We recently bought a new car. A 2005 Chevy Aveo. It's a great little car!!

I just haven't been feeling overly social. I'm not sick or anything like that. Just feeling blah. I think the cold and snow, ice, etc are a big part of it. But supposedly that's over for the season and it will start warming up. And now that I can get out of the house, maybe that will get me motivated too.

Blah is not fun!

doss @ 2007-02-13T10:22:00

2007-02-13T15:25:05Z

Get your own valentinr

doss @ 2007-02-06T10:02:00

2007-02-06T15:19:13Z

I blew it yesterday. Even though Aunt Flo officially started Sunday, I was determined to get the week off to a good start. I did more of my WATP dvd than normal. I used the tramp and exercise ball. I even walked around the house a lot because I was doing a lot of cleaning. I think something's wrong with my pedometer because I honestly think I walked double what it says I did. Anyway, today my legs are REALLY hurting me. I'm still going to move around alot and drink a lot of water, take vitamins, etc. I just won't do the strenuous leg exercises.

Also got some bittersweet news Sunday. A couple that I love very much have announced they are expecting a baby in August. I'm very happy for them because I know they will be wonderful parents.

But that's another couple that I'm going to start feeling distant from now. Children are a blessing. But it's a blessing we'll never have. Kids also take up a large chunk of peoople's lives. I understand and expect that. But it means not having anything in common with people any more because I don't know about raising children. And I just get intensely jealous (Although I try really hard not to show it) when I see people with their children. It's a big part of why I haven't been going to any group things lately. I've just been feeling so distant from people anymore. I now only know one couple that doesn't have kids and they are more Bill's friends than mine. I really don't have anything in common with them even without kids.

So I'm happy for my friends. They deserve the blessing they are going to receive. But, and I'm ashamed to say this, I'm so jealous!!

Stolen from Octavialuna

2007-02-02T17:10:22Z

Umm, for those of you that know me, how accurate do you think this is?

You Are Bert

Extremely serious and a little eccentric, people find you loveable - even if you don't love them!

You are usually feeling: Logical - you rarely let your emotions rule you

You are famous for: Being smart, a total neat freak, and maybe just a little evil

How you life your life: With passion, even if your odd passions (like bottle caps and pigeons) are baffling to others

The Sesame Street Personality Quiz

Thursday's Progress

2007-02-02T14:29:33Z

I got in all my water and I did my exercises. But I only managed about 1100 steps. I just have no energy these days. Today I'm not going to fool with any of it. I just can't. I'm too stuffed up and tired. I know what's causing it. My TOM is due any day now. So I'm just going to listen to my body and give myself a break today. The only things I'm still doing are taking my vitamins and wearing my pedometer and drinking some water, although maybe not as much. I'm just going to be lazy and watch the pretty snow fall.

Wednesday Progress

2007-02-01T19:38:56Z

Did WATP but only half a mile. I drank all my water and took my vitamins. I used the tramp and the exercise ball. I also managed to walk 2029 steps, but it was hard. I just couldnt seem to get going yesterday. Same for today.

Tuesday's Weight Loss Progress

2007-01-31T15:21:53Z

Walked 2600 steps
6 servings of water
Trampoline
25 "sit ups" on the exercise ball
Ate very little (Just wasn't hungry)

How do I feel: Productive. I really think I'm going to be able to follow this exercise program!!

A beautiful thing: Friendships. Two women that I was close to for a long time, but lost touch with, stopped by for a bit. It was so nice seeing them again.

Monday's weight program progress

2007-01-30T16:15:21Z

Walked 1225 steps (Need to work on that. Want to do 2000 every day for a week or so)
5 servings water
Watched my eating (Although I did have some Pepsi)
Worked on the tramp
25 "sit ups" on the exercise ball.

HOW DO I FEEL? Really good. I got a lot done yesterday. Put away all the laundry and did the dishes. Did my workouts. Made the bed and cleaned some walls.

A BEAUTIFUL THING: The day. There's a pretty light blue sky with fluffy white clouds.

Monday's weight program progress

2007-01-30T16:14:30Z

Walked 1225 steps (Need to work on that. Want to do 2000 every day for a week or so)
5 servings water
Watched my eating (Although I did have some Pepsi)

HOW DO I FEEL? Really good. I got a lot done yesterday. Put away all the laundry and did the dishes. Did my workouts. Made the bed and cleaned some walls.

A BEAUTIFUL THING: The day. There's a pretty light blue sky with fluffy white clouds.

doss @ 2007-01-28T11:49:00

2007-01-28T16:48:03Z

Good news: I'm down a pound and a half. Not sure why, to be honest, since I didn't make any extra effort to excercise (Was waiting for my pedometer which came Friday) and didn't drink much water. All I did was watch what I ate. But I'll take it!! Bad news: It's Cadbury Creme Egg season! I saw them at the store the other day. I LOVE these things!! They are so horrible for me and so rich, but I just can't resist them!! That's definitely not going to help my weight loss plan. But I'll just work out harder, drink more water and TRY to control how many I eat. I'm glad they only come out once a year (Easter Time) or I'd be in so much trouble!!

doss @ 2007-01-23T13:22:00

2007-01-23T18:25:58Z

Today I just have NO energy at all. I can't seem to get myself going. I've got a pain behind my right shoulder blade, but it's not keeping me from doing anything.

I dont know why I feel this way. I'm not sick. I got plenty of sleep. I'm just feeling really blah. Maybe it's just too much time spent in this house.

doss @ 2007-01-22T11:43:00

2007-01-22T16:46:25Z

School called a few days ago. I need to renew my LOA because it's only good for 30 days at a time. We wanted my LOA to go through until approximately the end of February because we're hoping to have our tax refund back by then (Or at least know how much it will be) so we can determine what to do about other transportation. Bill's truck is now completely out of commission. So we are relying solely on my truck.

Well, before I could head over to the school Saturday (Bill had to go into work for a few hours), the head of the program I'm in called. She said it would be such a shame for me to have to take a LOA when I'm on my final class. To be this close and have to stop is SO depressing! But it can't be helped, I told her.

She talked with the head of the training program. Because it's my last class (Not including the internship I need to finish the hours for), they have decided to waive the 20 hours a week on campus rule for me! I'm still considered LOA to keep things straight, but I can go ahead and work on the homework, exams, everything from home!! All I need to do is drop off the homework at the end of the class for the participation grade. Hot diggity!! Now maybe I'll actually be finished with this whole thing by around the end of February. That would be SO awesome!!